When Love Struck Me

I couldn’t possibly think that I would ever feel this way.  Like other girls, I love the thought of being in love. I consider myself a hopeless romantic. Even in books, movies and even from people I know, I wanted somehow to feel the same magical feeling. That warm fuzzy feeling when you get afflicted by it.

But the whole perception was changed when we start talking to each other.  And I felt something different, a strange feeling that I couldn’t explain. I felt extremely happy and inspired. And it shows how happy I am that people around me started to notice it. I haven’t had good sleep because I had so much energy to get me going. I find myself smiling without reason. And even if I had a bad day, I always end up with a happy disposition. It felt like walking in cloud nine. 

The most mundane things from you make my day. As simple as a message saying “Good Morning” is more than enough to get me through the day. Of course there’s a downside, here comes the sadness and disappointments. I was overwhelmed and forgot that we are two people who have completely different worlds.  Amidst the distance and time something keeps me coming back to you. Others may say that I am crazy about you. Maybe I am, I can’t stop thinking about you.

They say there is a fine line between love and obsession. And yes, I do think too much. I put other meaning to the trivial things. And I am in no position to do so. Maybe someday, somehow things will turn out for the better. If we do end up together, that’s fine and great. And if for some reason, we don’t then I move on. I am more than glad to wait for that someone who will dive into this madness called Love. For now, I wait.

The First Step

I have always wanted to explore the world. Meet new people. Learn new culture and experience living in a completely different world.

When I had the chance to fulfill it, I said “This is it!”  I did not anyone interfere with my decision. Yes, there were negative feed backs, comments and even violent reactions. They said it’s not easy working in different country especially in the Middle East. There were rampant issues about human trafficking and that the girls were being rape and sold. I am scared and had doubts but if I let fear ruled over me I won’t be able to experience what I have now.

Indeed is not easy living in different country: the language, the climate, the culture and the food is diverse from what you used to. At first, you wanted to go back home but day by day you learned to adapt to the things around you. You learn to understand the language, as foreign as it is. Cope with the climate and keep an open mind about their culture. You get to taste the local cuisine which is actually good if you love spicy foods.  

I am happy that I have come this far.  I realized that life has many things to offer if you’re just open to challenges and embrace change. Change is inevitable and I am most certain that my journey won’t end here. This is just the first step in fulfilling my dreams.